A milestone can be described this day at most. I am severed from the pressure of the ongoing issues of misplaced trust and capital. Since graduating, I have been waiting, watching and experiencing more disastrous events roll into fruition as a giant man eating snowman, paradox? I have been sitting on eggs, waiting for the best possible opportunities to hatch from such a cruel and unexpected fate brought to my parents in their business ventures. A college graduate educated in the best country in the world. Again, let me state, I have been severed from the web of a ever tender loving spider which has lain its lines in corners I would have never expected. Cocooned in comfort and allowed to survive, to become stronger, maybe even experience a metamorphosis I am not expected to complete. Today, or the past few days have been long lasting hours where i have declared my freedom silently making as little sounds as the never-ending sounds of mouse clicks and taps on keyboards as i decide the next 12 months of my life. i have been drawn down from morale-drenching events such as the ever unexpected departures of loved ones to the next realm and thinking in a bass frequency of those experiencing the same fate. my life is a soap opera waiting to be written by sub-standard writers never reaching production or even the eyes of big budget television companies. that is the fate of all human beings. to suffer hardship and to smile lightly and climb above it all to be a better person. I can honestly admit that i am obnoxiously lazy, something i have never been able to admit before a public forum. but the part of the equation that makes my laziness something to scorn at is the factor of passion. laziness is the absolute strength as ive conveyed to my parents many times although not so boldly. with laziness, comes a reason to find ways to make things that must be completed to be done easier, faster, or cheaper. is that not the goals of multi-national corporations all over the world? so the question does become relatively 'Am i passionate about what i have a tangible reach of presently?' I would take a moment to answer this question but with the all the experiences that i have been able to ascertain over the past two years, i would say i am 50 percent passionate meaning if my passion level is illustrated as a tachometer in a car, i would be idling at 1,000 rpm's all day and sometimes i'd go to 3 or 4 X 1,000's. workaholics and such operate at 7 or 8 X1,000's all day until theygo to sleep. that is cause of engine problems.
So if my deduction is sound. i bring my next point. I am currently questioning myself, all of myself, in a marriage of my health and uncle sams militia. yes, i do mean enlistment. self -discipline, physical training, and the purpose is greater than all of us. the protection of the free world. anybody can say the military as a force of good or evil depending which end of the barrel your standing. but ask yourself, from the news, (the single-sided media sources) and the events that have taken place or even the small situations where you let your consciousness be aware, ask yourself this question, 'do you love the country you were born in and would you risk your life so that any potential of danger is nulled before it is executed?' the US isnt some boys club in a treehouse picking on other kids, it is an over encompassing intelligence agency rooted throughout the world, accurate as it can be, dedicated to the fundamental beliefs of protecting the innocent and upholding democracy. do i sound like a obama-hating republican or what?
I have given myself 12 months to make the decision by choosing to sign up for the DEP program. (Delayed Entry Program) Until that time expires, i have elected to produce as much capital as physically conceivable. even if that means working two full time jobs. the idea of working two part time jobs is something short of inconceivable in our day in age due to the constant distractions poised by technology. i figure as i wait for the economy to recover from its gaping wound, i should squeeze every ounce of vitality and youth so that i can honestly say that this type of work is not suited for my body structure and my innate skills, whatever they may be. i've been looking at jobs that will push me out of the water forcing me to grow lungs and evolve with land legs like the ancient fishes of the earth. evolution works like art. you can say whatever you want. my short term dreams include a final trip to asia at the end of this next fiscal year beginning in december 2012. most critics will be cynics and say the world will end, the apocalypse is among us and dont go wasting your money. well, i have a couple words to those cynics, i love wasting money and stimulating economies wherever i tread. if it is the end of the world, i am certain that i will be spending like it is and living as it wasnt.
writing is medicine, no one knows the madness that ensues inside.
i write these things to give myself a clear picture of what i want to accomplish.
before i would write them in a journal but now as the world is beginning to convert to the virtual
it is only fitting that i express myself to the world wide web.
